Got through the thread today. Interesting to see that you were able to identify "Zodak". Absolutely amazing and wonderful. As you feel a little seperated now, it will come back to you and do not forget that you can always try to reach Zodak and his assistance again. Wonderful story you have there.
Also, as I drove down the road yesterday to go pick up my children, I thought to myself how my mentioning of Totem animals may confuse you a bit or make you leary as I would assume you consider yourself to be a follower of "Jesus Christ?" I would assume this by your mention of the bible. Just to let you know, I too am a follower of Jesus and Totem Animals are only another part of his lovely creation.
Billy, I wanted to address what you said here as well;
Originally Posted by Billy
I have had a similar experience with animal guides.In my true dream which is what I call them because they are more vivid than ordinary dreams.I was in a stable and there was a horse in front of me. As I was patting the horse I realised there was something unusual about the animal in that its eyes possesed too much awareness, I said to it you are not a horse and straight away it vanished and to my left was a woman of about 20 years of age crouched in the corner. I asked her "how do you shape shift". All she said was you must go down the hole and strike the dragon between the eyes. Later I understood that she had ignored my question and was addressing my current need to face my fears. I also understand now that shamanic dreams each have a test to prove our own awareness. If I hadn't the awareness inside my dreams to spot the unusual flaws that giveaway the pressence of meaning then it would have continued on as any other dream. Let the sleepers sleep and let those who are awakening wake.
You may know this but I'll add it not only in case you don't but for others who may benefit from the information. It is believed that when you dream of a horse, it is your inner soal or your dearest and closest spirit guide coming to communicate with you. A strong message is always linked with a horse dream. IF the horse talks, you are to pay very close attention to the words spoken.
-- What amazing control you have Billy over your ability to not only lucid dream but communicate with the entities coming to your aid within your dream. For your mind to seperate the horse from her true identity speaks very loudly of you and your abilities.