Thank you all, for the advice and kind words.
I feel better after seeing my dad, even if it's not a pretty sight.
Rebecca - Thanks for the quick answer. I'll look into The Work.
soccer7 - yes, that's what my plan is. EFT is a great thing, you can find information about it here on forums, or google it. The problem with me was I tried it while so emotional it didn't work.
nownownow / Dharma- I know your advice is good and reasonable, but I'll have to learn to do it, at least with these feelings. Acceptance I'm OK with. Thank you neverthless.
I'm not sure why I looked for advice, cuz what happened was, my long practiced mechanism of hiding sadness and fear just turned on automatically. The whole family is actually this way, for we have a long history of misfortunes. I learned not to let a tear pass my bedroom. I manage to stay calm, keeping others focused on his recovery.
Oh, this doesn't sound good. Nor feels. I'll have to learn to deal with the feelings too. |