[norbert]

Sireesha, I feel with you. I just lost my two best friends. I knew them for 12 and 7 years. Although we've been screaming at each other all the time in the past 3 years with the former, I still miss him a lot (he was waay to negative, as you described). They both moved to another city. Now it's my turn, I'm moving in a month. Nobody left here to stay with so I need to move on too. I do know that this is part of life but still, I'm always the one who is the most caring in these relationships. I'd be so grateful for having friends who appreciate the time they can spend with me as much as I do. Maybe my friends just weren't mature enough for this. I'm usually ahead of my age at least 4+ years and sadly I'm not really into the idea of getting older friends. We'll see what life brings. It definitely hurts.