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Well done Renie. Things make much more sense when we work them out for ourselves rather than buying into (sometimes at considerable expense!) some guru's canned philosophy. The whole SR, I/M, LoA thing makes sense for people who grew up playing computer games and always using the cheat codes. They start to believe that life is like that and that they can short-circuit the hard work and pretend there is no reality. I find the concept of SR totally depressing. If I am all that there is, and everything else is a matrix-like simulation in my head and under my control, it actually makes the pursuit of achievements and relationships meaningless. It would just be one big ego trip of my relationship with me.
I prefer to accept that I am part of nature. Other beings are just as capable of self determination as I am. My relationship with them depends on both of us working towards a common goal. Some things (eg tsunami's) are random events over which I have no control, and for which I feel no responsibility. But that does not stop me feeling compassion for the victims or prevent me from helping them.
Welcome to the wonderful world of reality and love.