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NathanPhillips · 03-14-2007, 02:05 AM

Yes, I like the image you describe of finding a connection and bringing that experience back to society. Indeed that's always what I've seen myself doing. I kind of use James Bond as my mental model for a Darkworker. He is utterly selfish. He maintains relationships purely as far as they benefit him, or might benefit him. He is appraising every situation around - "What can I get out of this?" And he doesn't think of ever giving back. According to some of the story, he doesn't ever think about retirement; he doesn't believe he'll live that long. So he sees his life as a long stretch of experiences solely for himself, and then terminating.

But I've never seen my life that way. I've always had this desire to provide nice places that promote self-inquiry, self-development, and peaceful congregation of people with intensely differing views. A place for those people to come to get to know each other. And this extends to travel experiences - I would like to guide people on travel experiences like a trip through the Amazon, crossing the Empty Quarter, and other places in which you can be fully immersed in nature and removed from society for a time. And I want to support those experiences as transformational periods in that person's life.

I guess my whole qualm is - I don't want to do those things RIGHT NOW. I want to take care of myself first; I want to have those experiences first. Then I'll feel able to give them. So I guess, looking at the big picture that way, the path as a whole follows a Lightworking theme.

And, actually, thinking about those larger goals again makes me more motivated to succeed in the business aim that's on my current plate. Because - as something that leads to those things, as a first step towards them, it feels that much more worthwhile.

Well I certainly feel like I've made some progress with this

I haven't got it all worked out yet, but I think I'm going to give a try to consciously making my life about the Creative Polarity for awhile. At least give it that 30-day trial that Steve is so fond of. (And which I also like).

03-14-2007, 02:05 AM	#10 (permalink)
NathanPhillips Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Posts: 4	Yes, I like the image you describe of finding a connection and bringing that experience back to society. Indeed that's always what I've seen myself doing. I kind of use James Bond as my mental model for a Darkworker. He is utterly selfish. He maintains relationships purely as far as they benefit him, or might benefit him. He is appraising every situation around - "What can I get out of this?" And he doesn't think of ever giving back. According to some of the story, he doesn't ever think about retirement; he doesn't believe he'll live that long. So he sees his life as a long stretch of experiences solely for himself, and then terminating. But I've never seen my life that way. I've always had this desire to provide nice places that promote self-inquiry, self-development, and peaceful congregation of people with intensely differing views. A place for those people to come to get to know each other. And this extends to travel experiences - I would like to guide people on travel experiences like a trip through the Amazon, crossing the Empty Quarter, and other places in which you can be fully immersed in nature and removed from society for a time. And I want to support those experiences as transformational periods in that person's life. I guess my whole qualm is - I don't want to do those things RIGHT NOW. I want to take care of myself first; I want to have those experiences first. Then I'll feel able to give them. So I guess, looking at the big picture that way, the path as a whole follows a Lightworking theme. And, actually, thinking about those larger goals again makes me more motivated to succeed in the business aim that's on my current plate. Because - as something that leads to those things, as a first step towards them, it feels that much more worthwhile. Well I certainly feel like I've made some progress with this I haven't got it all worked out yet, but I think I'm going to give a try to consciously making my life about the Creative Polarity for awhile. At least give it that 30-day trial that Steve is so fond of. (And which I also like).