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allen080105 · 02-01-2010, 03:45 AM

To give an update, I have been visualizing from time to time, just not everyday.

I've been getting kind of frustrated because answers keep coming in and I'm just scared to act on them. Hmmm. I guess I could visualize acting on the answers

didn't think about that until I started writing this

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As much as I've tried to ignore it or work around it, there has been a flood of signals telling me this environment isn't the right place for me. It's a huge block to most of the things I try pertaining to personal growth. I really didn't realize how much I had grown until I was submerged back in this old vibration.

To give some background there was a point in college where I decided to never have a job again and I quit college too also. I really wanted to burn the bridges and focus on building a blogging business. Looking back I think that was a point where I should have asked for help, because as time went on I could see I started putting more and more energy into fear. I didn't have any money coming and I had racked up a pretty big student loan balance and maxed out some credit cards. I still had a little student loan money left but not enough to pay rent (even after selling everything in my apartment on craigslist) so I got kicked out of my apartment but I really didn't want to go back to my parents house, so I stayed at different hotels. I thought about living out of my car, but that eventually broke down too.

I thought that might be a stressful time, but it really wasn't. It was extremely exciting. The only time I was fearful was when I talked to people scared for me. Eventually I ran out of money to even pay for that so I moved back in with parents.

I've mostly stayed with parents for the last 9 months, but I've been staying with other relatives too just to see what effect my environment has on my growth. I actually got to stay with a family that wasn't worried about money at all for two weeks. I was suprised to see I got more done, I felt better, and I got my first direct sale on my blog with the advertiser coming to me and offering a small deal. I didn't even try and that money just came. After that I was like..geeeez...what more of a signal do I need?

Right now I'm REALLY considering just taking a bus somewhere to a different city and starting from scratch.

02-01-2010, 03:45 AM	#30 (permalink)
allen080105 Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Houston, TX Posts: 165	To give an update, I have been visualizing from time to time, just not everyday. I've been getting kind of frustrated because answers keep coming in and I'm just scared to act on them. Hmmm. I guess I could visualize acting on the answers didn't think about that until I started writing this . As much as I've tried to ignore it or work around it, there has been a flood of signals telling me this environment isn't the right place for me. It's a huge block to most of the things I try pertaining to personal growth. I really didn't realize how much I had grown until I was submerged back in this old vibration. To give some background there was a point in college where I decided to never have a job again and I quit college too also. I really wanted to burn the bridges and focus on building a blogging business. Looking back I think that was a point where I should have asked for help, because as time went on I could see I started putting more and more energy into fear. I didn't have any money coming and I had racked up a pretty big student loan balance and maxed out some credit cards. I still had a little student loan money left but not enough to pay rent (even after selling everything in my apartment on craigslist) so I got kicked out of my apartment but I really didn't want to go back to my parents house, so I stayed at different hotels. I thought about living out of my car, but that eventually broke down too. I thought that might be a stressful time, but it really wasn't. It was extremely exciting. The only time I was fearful was when I talked to people scared for me. Eventually I ran out of money to even pay for that so I moved back in with parents. I've mostly stayed with parents for the last 9 months, but I've been staying with other relatives too just to see what effect my environment has on my growth. I actually got to stay with a family that wasn't worried about money at all for two weeks. I was suprised to see I got more done, I felt better, and I got my first direct sale on my blog with the advertiser coming to me and offering a small deal. I didn't even try and that money just came. After that I was like..geeeez...what more of a signal do I need? Right now I'm REALLY considering just taking a bus somewhere to a different city and starting from scratch. Last edited by allen080105; 02-01-2010 at 03:48 AM.