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newuserint · 01-30-2010, 04:25 AM

I Guess this is my first post since like 18 months.
I remember posting here cause of feeling so depressed and because i felt it wasnt worth living anymore.

I have had homosexual atraction since i remember, but i always tried to refuse it, i dont know nothing about what Andrew said of others lifes but sometimes i feel more feminine than masculine, i know theres people who may think i'm gay but i actually like women, and what the past 18 months ive been thinking and exploring is the fact that i actually like men too.

Its not like i decided that, since always i remember masturbating about women fantasies but in the past 6 months i had men fantasies.

The past 3 or 4 months ive decided to accept the fact i have men atracttion too.

The issue i have now is weather i like more men than women.

I wouldnt really like to have sex with men, its a personal decision ive made.

So what i really would like is to be more masculine.

Sometimes i think that i have a female soul in male body.

I'm a "pretty boy" and i know it, so that makes me think im more into men than women.

In the issue of realtionships i have always have more men friends than women but actually i am a not very social person.

I guess its part of the same.

What i want in life is to achieve my career goals, have a family with a girl, i wouldnt like to have a homosexual life, even knowing i have homosexual atraction.

Also other thing that may dont have nothing to do with, but i think my father is homosexual and i think most of his problems have to do with it. He spends most of his time in playing and singing Catholic songs.

What are the chances of being son(biological) of a gay father to be also gay.

01-30-2010, 04:25 AM	#78 (permalink)
newuserint Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 34	I Guess this is my first post since like 18 months. I remember posting here cause of feeling so depressed and because i felt it wasnt worth living anymore. I have had homosexual atraction since i remember, but i always tried to refuse it, i dont know nothing about what Andrew said of others lifes but sometimes i feel more feminine than masculine, i know theres people who may think i'm gay but i actually like women, and what the past 18 months ive been thinking and exploring is the fact that i actually like men too. Its not like i decided that, since always i remember masturbating about women fantasies but in the past 6 months i had men fantasies. The past 3 or 4 months ive decided to accept the fact i have men atracttion too. The issue i have now is weather i like more men than women. I wouldnt really like to have sex with men, its a personal decision ive made. So what i really would like is to be more masculine. Sometimes i think that i have a female soul in male body. I'm a "pretty boy" and i know it, so that makes me think im more into men than women. In the issue of realtionships i have always have more men friends than women but actually i am a not very social person. I guess its part of the same. What i want in life is to achieve my career goals, have a family with a girl, i wouldnt like to have a homosexual life, even knowing i have homosexual atraction. Also other thing that may dont have nothing to do with, but i think my father is homosexual and i think most of his problems have to do with it. He spends most of his time in playing and singing Catholic songs. What are the chances of being son(biological) of a gay father to be also gay.