[bellbird]

How serious is your partner about his relationship with you? I just wondered. I read from your other post that you are from Bulgaria, 19 years old and that you obviously now study in Germany. I admire your persistence and determination to find a 'better' life for yourself where you want to be able to express being gay openly. Good on you! I understand it's not easy at the moment.... What do you study? Your English is better then you think by the way, you are doing very well.

To be honest I find it hard to give you advice. That's why I asked you to explain your relationship with this man a bit more and what you study. Why has your partner decided to go to London and to leave you in Germany? Only because he has a friend there and he can speak English better then German?

Is it worth it only because of me wanting to be with the man I love

If you have a 18 month relationship then how do each of you value that? How strong is it? (Being gay is no issue to me whatsoever, and I'm pretty sure there's lots of posters out there who are actually gay or are fine about it as well, reading the threads and postings etc on this forum.)

So we went to Germany, everything was fine. He and I thought in the very beginning that we were going to stay in Germany for good, that we were going to be able to live in a country where gay are more positive accepted, where we could have the opportunity to live a better live together.
But then I realized that I did not like my course, in my opinion it was only a group of unconnected lectures. We both came to the conclusion that things weren´t as expected.

What were the things that did not work out for your partner?
As you said, you do not like your course and he agreed things were not working out as hoped. Why do you not like your course (again; what do you do?) Do you know what you would like to do instead?

Now it is the end of the semester, I am not able to pay my tuition fee for the next semester, even though I go to work to earn some money. I know that my parents would not give me money, because they have already spent enough money for me and my education.
My boyfriend decided to go to London to a friend after he earns some money. He already made his decision. Now I have to make mine.

I was hoping, maybe I could get a second chance by starting all over again in a new country, but with the man I love and choosing a course which I am really keen on.

Please, help me. Which of these two options seems better to you?
I do not know what to do. I know I am too young yet, but as somebody already told me- life is short .

Maybe you are young but that doesn't matter regarding your situation. It's great you are willing to 'have a go' and find your way. Unfortunately we can't tell you what is best to do, you know that best. It's great that your parents want the best for you (I assume) and that they have offered to help out paying for your tuition, but it's your life, not theirs. Don't throw your studies and experience away either of course. Finishing the course seems a good idea. Dashing off to London feels like an escape and flight to me. That's why I asked questions about your relationship too... as your partner is the only reason really that you are considering to go to London.

Maybe you would like to respond to my questions above first as to give me and other posters more of an idea on some specifics? Thanks.