Originally Posted by Angela
If it makes you feel any better, everyone has an old identity-level limiting belief ("gremlin") lurking in their depths.... and it's the "theme" that keeps coming up, having your buttons get pushed, demands to be dealt with, resolved, released, or let loose on the world.
You might want to look at what yours is, because just seeing it in the light of day takes away much of its power over you. To find it, look to see what you believe about yourself, a deeply unconscious level (like something your 3 year old self would say, not your grown-up, conscious, figuring-it-out enlightened self):
""you have to work hard, you have to have a grand purpose, it all has to be difficult" and that means that I am _______.
When you find it, it'll hit you like a ton of bricks. You'll see that it's been running you in every area of your life, beneath the level of your awareness.
Mine was "I am worthless."
Wow, there's the ton of bricks. Thank you for saying that so succintly and clearly. I just read along with your sentence and just filled the blank right in without batting an eye or missing a beat..."and that means that I am NOT GOOD ENOUGH."
Oy vay. A whole 'nother level/depth of "I'm not good enough". It's where the depression stems from, it's the biggest issue I had to overcome to even take the step to learn Reiki and start a business. On the top superficial levels of course I "know" I'm good enough...but here I am looking around and realizing that I have created "I am not good enough" in every aspect of my current reality. Unbelievable. But believable too, given how ingrained the belief is and how little attention I've lately given to any kind of introspection and/or self-nurturing. Wow. Sorry this post is all over the place but this is all processing right now.
I need to go do the process and see where this leads me. Angela: THANK YOU. I was missing a plank here and looking around desperately for it and never thought to look down under my feet where it's always been. I'm gonna build a better plank.