Originally Posted by Angela
If what I or any other aspect of YOUR consciousness looks like a giant waste of time to you, there's no reason you *should* choose it. Choose something that inspires you, why doncha? That's what I'd do if I were you.
And I am.
GREAT point! I think I am getting stuck in the "you have to work hard, you have to have a grand purpose, it all has to be difficult" vibe. Geez, does anyone else get sick of revisiting the same themes over and over? This is why I start to get a complex that I am doing something "wrong"...because the same issues keep coming up when I just want them to have been "dealt with" and over already.
I have never been an "enjoy the process" kind of person...I like getting to the end result. I think this is why I'm struggling so much...it's going to be a never-ending process with no appreciable results and I just have to learn to "like" it.