Update
Well I have done that... and as I expected my lady is a pegger! Haha
Needless to say we have been having a LOT of fun.
Having asked her like the 10th time, "you do like this, right? When I'm soft and tender and vulnerable?" she said kindly, "no more masks, Andrew."
Funnily enough I find now that I am accepting more my feminine side I find it easier to express my masculine side fully, too. It's funny, .... I don't know if I should write this without asking her but, well, just this, she's sleeping........ we might start sex with me as the more masculine, dominant one and then end with me being all feminine. Or the other way around.
It helps that I don't THINK about being masculine, feminine or whatever. In real life the dynamic is very fluid. As soon as you're trying to be what you think you should be right now, you're blocking it. But the purpose is to express and enjoy our true selves, not our mental activity.
i'm so happy to be able to express myself exactly as I feel like with her. It was such hell in school when I wanted to be gentle, radiant and open and everyone attacked me because I was supposed to be a tough hardened man. I fought so much to express myself truly, but in the end the only things I could do were be a hermit or make defenses against people. Mostly, I became a hermit, and eventually went crazy out of loneliness and disgust.
With my lady, I can observe as I let my inner self out fully. It's funny how my body moves sometimes when I'm feeling feminine, like this lithe sensual revelling. I just lie on the bed and twist my body and squeal in a funny girly way. I know, I make myself laugh
It's fun
Are
you expressing yourself freely?
Love
Andrew