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Back in 1994 my maternal Grandmother passed away at the age of 94. Shortly after, I was talking with my dad about longevity on both sides of the family and he mentioned that he didn't think he'd live past 75. I believe that you can program your mind to such an extent that you can create self-fulfilling prophecies via beliefs. Seven years later, my dad had a minor stroke and I mentioned to the rest of the family what my dad had said years earlier and that they should be prepared. He would seem to get better and then have a relapse and then the rest of his body started shutting down. He died a little less than a month before his 75th birthday.
It is normal to think about your own mortality when faced with your upcoming future deployment, but how intensely do you think about it or dwell upon it? If it is a recurring thought that won't seem to be rationalized away, then you might have a wired in scenario that can be cleared out. Working with several dozen people so far, I've found that wired-in scenarios can cause other people to subconsciously trigger your scenario buttons.
If it is something that you are concerned about but not overly fearful about, then one thing you can do to possibly secure your living past military commission is to meditate on things you want to have happen after your time in the military or at least past your trip to the Mideast. Include your fiancÚ in these mental exercises too. Imagine being whole and healthy, and happily married with children. You both can confirm this to your subconscious minds by saying things like, "We choose to see and celebrate our 30th (or higher) wedding anniversary, and our 40th and 50th!" and "We choose to be fully involved with our children's lives well into adulthood!" even if you don't have children yet. This is akin to telling your subconscious that you intend to live for a very long time and you are projecting yourself into the future. Your subconscious mind can influence you to make decisions and take actions that can affect your future. Keep subscriptions going or even start a subscription that will run long past your deployment. When you are away, think and talk as if you know you'll be going home, intact, healthy, whole and fully functional.