Why do I sense a feeling of desperation...like you want to know if anyone with foresight, can see if you are coming home in one piece, in a box.....alive?
I think more importantly, you should be asking yourself.....how would "knowing" any of this...benefit you? Hope for the best...expect the worse...and "Thank you Phil, for my freedom."
In love and light
Blessings to you and yours,