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Originally Posted by Antiventurecapital  Me too.
Where has it led you? It's led me to a huge burst in PD too. It's like striking a vein in a goldmine, and then following all the other veins which connect to it. |
I have only been pursuing this for about ten weeks and at the time I started, I was pretty seriously depressed. I still feel very much like I am just starting out. I have spent most of the past ten weeks weeding through theories and opinions and hype and, honestly, crap, to figure out what MY philosophy is.
What it has led me to is a greater sense of my own creative abilities and opportunities. I feel more at peace, I feel less crushed and depressed. I feel like my life is mine to make. I feel like we can have the things we want to make our lives comfortable and safe. I am learning to meditate. I still need work there. I have a hard time shutting my brain up. I am working on unconditional love and I am working on eliminating ego-based judgements. I feel like I am a better person, a better mother, a better wife. I am more content with my life.
We have manifested small things, but I am not sure I will ever be a champion manifester of STUFF. I don't think I am 'stuff' oriented enough. I like my stuff, but I am not sure I can focus a lot of energy in attaining 'stuff'. I want enough money to be safe and comfortable and we are well on our way to having that. I want a place for me and my dogs and horses and I feel like that is going to happen, where before I didn't. And mostly I just feel like I am...up to the task? It is hard to explain. I feel like I can handle 'it' now, whatever 'it' might be. Before I think a lot of my depression was related to feelings of being unprepared or inadequate or something. I don't have that now.