Hello,
I was reading LaceyJane10's post.
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I have felt different my whole life and out of place with the people I grew up with. (In Redneckville, La) If I tried to talk about what I felt, I was usually told or looked at like I was crazy. So, I would often wonder if I was just crazy... So many times I felt depressed and frustrated because I would have experiences that were undeniablebly REAL but when I would try tell someone because I was so amazed and excited, I could feel their doubt and disbelief.
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She took the words out of my mouth. Till I was 20 I kept all these experiences to myself. The problem with me is I am a pessimist. So usually I get these visions or intiutions about bad things.
When I was a kid I knew we were going to end up in an accident 5 minutes before our car got totalled.
The night there was a burglary at home I couldn't sleep. I felt like somebody was in the house that morning.. that night we got robbed.
I was so upset.. I would look at a person and think he was going to die and he would die the next day. I know these are not coincidences and that I am not mentally ill.. Once or twice you can brush it off but after a million coincidneces you know its not a coincidence.
I told my sister about these "experiences" and she didn't believe me. I told her and gave her examples until she stopped teasing me. I was mad that she was "smirking" and just teasing me and my experiences. So I told her things in a way that she would believe me.
Soon after she started believing me, My family's close friend passed away. The day before he passed away my sister thought he was going to die.
And before you know it soon after that incident my sister developed schizoprenia and psychosis!!!!!!!!
I don't know what to do to undo the damage I have caused my family and my sister! You won't even imagine how much agony my family is going through because of her psychosis. Being beaten.. yelled at.. It has been a nightmare.
All because of my big mouth!!!! I should have kept these experiences to myself. After 20 years of silence why did I have to tell her about this.???
I am probably going to die in hell for the torture I have put my family in. She was a great, happy student and now all she does is stay home at the age of 26 torturing my family and cry about the family friend who passed away and all these deaths they show on tv..saying she caused them..
I agree.. even if you have psychic powers or experiences NEVER tell friends or family about them.
I haven't gotten anything by sharing these experiences with my sister. The questions about these "incidents" are still lingering inside me and still spooking me out. I don't know if they are visions or if I am making things happen. But now I have a mentally sick sister in addition to my problems..
CRYING SMILEY!!!
IF anyone has any suggestions on how I undo the mistake/crime I have commited and rescue my sister and family from this distress please let me know.
I have to get my sister to recover! Poor thing! I screwed up her remarkably intelligent overachieving brain and life!!!! CRYING SMILEY.