The Beast: you seem to suffer from depression. You sleep a lot, you think about life and death too much, you have no motivation. Tell me, do you have the same appetite as you used to do and do you sometimes wake up early in the morning, when you are actually still tired?
The only right thing for you is to call a psychologists. You need therapy and maybe medicine.
And whatever you do. Don't use your last energy to try to change your life rapidly. I did that, with the help of Pavlina.com, and got VERY suicidal when my energy ran out and things just disintegrated and went back to my initial situation.
Pavlinas ideas (well some of them) are great - if you are feeling well. Otherwise they can be very harmful because they make you believe that there is always a possibility to change dramatically - and if you are deeply depressed and not treated - you really can't. Noone who has suffered from depression would argue against this.
Good luck!
