I experienced a few of those things along with when I went into the subjective reality mindset. At first when I was considering it this fear took over me and I started to freak out that everything was "made up" by me and I might create bad things since I was in control of the reality. I decided to keep going with it since I'd rather see how it turned out, that freak out went away once I realized everything was still fine and alright.
The loneliness I only experienced for a small amount of time. It subsided when I stopped thinking of me as my body and all those other "bodies" as fake, instead with subjective reality you're basically everything, one with the universe etc. etc. Your body is as much you as any other body, everyone's connected...and a few of those realizations made me feel the complete opposite of lonely.
Not feeling emotions...yep I went through that for awhile. It was nice for a time, but after awhile I wanted to enjoy emotions again as life became a bit blah without them as I started seeing life as having no point and all that. To get them back I basically just "willed" them back. It was while I was watching a movie that I remembered feeling strong sorrow for in the past. I wanted to feel that again, so I forced myself to feel the sorrow that I used to by reminding myself why it was sad. With that done my emotions overall seemed to come back.
I think part of it is working on your beliefs, if theres anything that seems to be trying to keep your emotions down see if you can pinpoint them. Feeling emotions for the sake of feeling them is completely reasonable, that's what I had to decide since I kept thinking there was no point when I thought everything was "meaningless"
Last edited by Andy; 03-08-2007 at 01:12 AM.
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