Great post! Throught my life whenever I wanted something I was able to get it. I wanted to go to college and I did. I wanted to go to grad school and move to the East Cost and I did. I wanted to get a job in a certain field and I did. After that I wanted another job with more money and more focus on a specific area so I did. This past September I really wanted to get an apartment in a certain building which was fully occupied but somehow another apartment became available and I got it. I know how to make my dreams come true. However, right now I don't know what I really, truly want. I feel lost, as if I am no longer in touch with myself. I started practicing meditation hoping that that will help me get in touch with myself. I really miss having a goals. I am reading the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People and one of the suggestions is to Start with the End in Mind. I thought about it but I just don't know what I would want people to remember me as....great wife and mom, great employee, great blah, blah blah just doesn't do it for me. I always thought I was meant to do something outstanding in life....when I was a teenager I dreamed of being an actress but decided to pursue a different path when I started college. In college I thought I would go back to my country eventually and make a positive contribution to its development. When I finished grad school I just wanted a job that would pay me well. I am not depressed or anything...I am a happy person generally satisfied with life. My life has not been a smooth sailing and I had to fight for everything. I know, however, that I want to do more than want I am doing right now. I just can't figure out what it is.  |