I have a theory about the feelings associated with each side, and an explanation for why I and many other don't understand Steve's Subjective Reality.
This is all between the line of his texts and podcasts, like the one about overcoming fear.
He says that lightworkers will reach the level of consciousness of Peace (as you know that is very high) by transcending their fears. Darkworkers reach they SAME level, by conquering their fears, by having accumulated 'enough' power. Just freshing up your memory
So reaching a higher level means for a lightworker becoming more transcendent (as in getting over their own ego and personality), and experiencing the positive feelings of enthusiasm and love and communion wherever they are. When a darkworker reaches a higher level, that means he has become more powerful. He will experience more positive feelings of tension and relief, wherever they are.
So the light is about feeling love, enthusiasm and communion.
And the dark is about feeling tension, relief and individuality.
Both kinds of feelings can be equally satisfying.
I know that I mostly operate at the level of Acceptance (goal setting and reaching), and Reason (looking for your best place in the world). A few days ago, when I became conscious of my polarization through the articles, plus reflecting on my past, a paradigm shift happened. I now realise I have made every step on the ladder of consciousness throw inflow (or conquering fear if you like). I have ever only grown as a person after acquiring something in Objective Reality.
Now I know why I could not understand his articles and podcasts about Subjective Reality. I used to be upset about that, because I (hopefully
) grasped and accepted all his other material. Only there he lost me. Precisely where he concludes that like 'we all have the same consciousness, and therefore nothing can truly harm me, so therefore I am not afraid'.
I really tried to get this. But I can't. Now I finally know why.
A lightworker is not afraid after he or she merges with this universal consciousness. But there lies the problem for me: I only know about separate consciousness, that shares concepts words and images. That is what is making them seem alike, but not the same. For me reality is objective, and I can manifest myintention in it by taking action and changing my perception of it. But it is still objectively out there.
Another reason I stick with Ob. Reality is that I am attached to the me, that is here on this beautiful earth, for only a fixed amount of time. I don't believe that the 'I' that I experience will continue after death. My mind is contingent on a living brain. Yet I love this 'I' so much, that I would not want it to be completely integrated in some higher, universal soup of everything. EVEN if that is my true nature, I just don't want to make the bet. I love me, and my inevitable death gives my life a strange peace. It makes my experiences special and unique. If I identify myself with the ancient daemons of life on earth (lust, aggression, hunger and even pain), then I am just as immortal as the Buddha's in heaven.