peejay, I think by resisting her so hard, you are keeping her in your life. What you resist, persists. Perhaps you could take a look at why her competitiveness and rivalry pushes your buttons -- is this something you've experienced before? Are you holding onto some leftover childhood rivalry, maybe with your mom or sister? Take a good look, and practice acceptance of what comes up for yourself, and then of her (and your old rivals) as well. Don't forget, accepting does not mean condoning. Of course you can take steps to change your situation. But as long as your resistance rules you and you are reacting to the feelings of rivalry, you are holding these feelings tightly to your heart. When you practice acceptance, then you're free to act powerfully and with love.
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