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Originally Posted by Liara Covert  I like the sound of your plan to work toward your goal of becoming a music teacher. To help boost your morale, you may also create opportunities to develop your music passion during university. |
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Originally Posted by Fifth_Column_Media Anyways, I just wanted to say that I think its interesting that I see a lot of people who are very passionate about music, having difficulty with purpose. That where I was too as music is my passion as well and it took me forever to actually believe I could make it doing something music related. For the longest time I felt very trapped because I thought that I was locked into my degree and thinking that I was going to hate any job that used my degree. I relegated myself to basically saying that my degree would be nothing other than a way to fund my passion. |
Great suggestion Liara.
About last month, my friend asked if i want to join her band.I was nervous because I didnt think i have time for d band and couldnt possibly imagine i can cope with college at the same time. I did it anyway.
Someone asked me to join d band back then two years ago the summer before i entered college. During the last 2 yrs of my college, i kept myself away from the truth,, i didnt want to admit to myself i love music and tis is my passion and something i'd love to do for a career because I wasnt doing it. I was far from doing music.It hurts me alot to admit that i dont like my career and i was feeling down for weeks; that is why i ve been avoiding any musical activities in college coz it HURTS me alot knowing that i m far from my purpose/passion and that it is not easy to do my 5 years degree and decided i dont want it anymore.What a WASTE of TIME!
I dont think like tis anymore.. My degree is not wasting my time.It is helping me. Lately, I ve been enjoying going to college alot more. I m happier now. It took me a while to realise my degree is essential.It wud be alot easier to accomplish my passion free of the worry about MONEY.
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I entered the college coz my parents told me to REAL. People need MONEY. Music fulfills my spiritual need and passion but StevPavs talked about
: the Purpose must fulfill both your spiritual, heart, and PHYSCIAL need! Music is not something i m absolute sure i can make enough money to pay for my bills and pay for my food. If i have to worry about Money..I will absolutely hate my passion.
I have many many friends that went to do art and music. I was so jealous of them for the last 2 years coz they seem happy. I was very unhappy coz my course was difficult i have no time to socialise, plus I hate my course.
But lately, I realised their passion is making them miserable at the same time.
They are so worried about money. They cant afford alot of things.They have enough to pay the rent but that's it.They cant afford to eat in fancy restaurant and they are not eating right also..they are eating junks alot of the time. They cant afford alot of basic equipments for Art/music. Instruments,,, paints,,drawing papers etcs.. these are actually EXPENSIVE.
There's too much BS in these industry. Of course, they are happier than me now. I m guranteed in the long run..I m better off. I can use my degree to get a nice decent easy 9-5 job which pays well and after work i can do my music and be able to pay for my instruments, more music lessons..etc. Then finally BOOM my I MADE IT as a MUSIC LECTURER in a university. I will quit my stable 9-5 job and be able to make money from then on with my passion. I get up everyday going doing my passion not saying to myself : " I M GOING TO WORK" It is something " I DO"
When i think about my situation in 2yrs time i m motivated and alot happier. I m suffering now..but these 2yrs will gurantee me a life time free of most worries.
Its not easy at the present moment. I must be patient.Its not going to be easy. I m expecting alot of EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER.But things will get alot brighter as time passes.
Meanwhile, I m not holding back my passion anymore..I m doing my music and also my degree. I m not choosing to give up one for the other.I m keeping them both. Degree and music help one and the other.
Sometimes I wish i knew what i know now 2yrs ago coz then i wud have been a happier person. How i wish i did something with music 2yrs ago.I wasted alot of time..being unhappy I cud have been happy getting a balance of them both.