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mtrimpe · 03-04-2007, 04:30 PM

I can only speak for myself. I have always been a physically troubled child.

At the age of 5 I contracted Perthes disease, which is when a vein in the hip dies off and isn't properly replaced, so the hip-joint begins to die off as well.
At the age of 7 I developed very severe Asthma.
At the age of 15 I got hit by a car going at 35mph while biking from school to home.

In retrospect I believe I intended all these things to happen. Each one of these events made me so much stronger. I beat all of them in a nearly miraculous fashion.

The Perthes disease leaves almost all of its sufferers unable to walk properly. If you have ever seen someone walking across the street with a really bad 'wobble ' in their walk, the chances are they had Perthes disease. Miraculously though I am now not able to just walk properly, I can even run and the only remnant is slightly reduced mobility in my right hip.

The Asthma left me incapacitated for several years, hardly being able to sleep. At some point when the doctor prescribed me my 6th medicine to take daily I told my mom I wanted to quit taking the medicine. She allowed me to stop and a few weeks later I was cured of the Asthma almost completely. I now even smoke

The car accident is the first one where I can truly see where my intending it came into place. I realize now that I put myself through all these ordeals to challenge myself. I always felt like life was too easy for me, that there weren't enough challenges, that the pace the world had set for me was simply too slow. Before I was hit by that car I was trying to do two years of high-school in one, but it was made almost impossible by the school. I was constantly looking for a challenge in my life, something that would truly be tough to deal with.

And then one day I got hit by that car, had my body almost destroyed, damaged my brain making me lose my ability to organize my thoughts and from one day to the next I had an incredibly tough challenge to face. Not only did I have to repair my body, I had to catch up on half a year of school-work, while at the same time the accident caused me brain-damage which made it very hard for me to organize my thoughts (I had been the 'super-intelligent' type kid before that).

So yes, I intended that car accident. I was looking for a challenge. I'm learning now to create somewhat more constructive challenges for myself instead of destructive ones, but I did get what I wanted.

03-04-2007, 04:30 PM	#12 (permalink)
mtrimpe Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 127	I can only speak for myself. I have always been a physically troubled child. At the age of 5 I contracted Perthes disease, which is when a vein in the hip dies off and isn't properly replaced, so the hip-joint begins to die off as well. At the age of 7 I developed very severe Asthma. At the age of 15 I got hit by a car going at 35mph while biking from school to home. In retrospect I believe I intended all these things to happen. Each one of these events made me so much stronger. I beat all of them in a nearly miraculous fashion. The Perthes disease leaves almost all of its sufferers unable to walk properly. If you have ever seen someone walking across the street with a really bad 'wobble ' in their walk, the chances are they had Perthes disease. Miraculously though I am now not able to just walk properly, I can even run and the only remnant is slightly reduced mobility in my right hip. The Asthma left me incapacitated for several years, hardly being able to sleep. At some point when the doctor prescribed me my 6th medicine to take daily I told my mom I wanted to quit taking the medicine. She allowed me to stop and a few weeks later I was cured of the Asthma almost completely. I now even smoke The car accident is the first one where I can truly see where my intending it came into place. I realize now that I put myself through all these ordeals to challenge myself. I always felt like life was too easy for me, that there weren't enough challenges, that the pace the world had set for me was simply too slow. Before I was hit by that car I was trying to do two years of high-school in one, but it was made almost impossible by the school. I was constantly looking for a challenge in my life, something that would truly be tough to deal with. And then one day I got hit by that car, had my body almost destroyed, damaged my brain making me lose my ability to organize my thoughts and from one day to the next I had an incredibly tough challenge to face. Not only did I have to repair my body, I had to catch up on half a year of school-work, while at the same time the accident caused me brain-damage which made it very hard for me to organize my thoughts (I had been the 'super-intelligent' type kid before that). So yes, I intended that car accident. I was looking for a challenge. I'm learning now to create somewhat more constructive challenges for myself instead of destructive ones, but I did get what I wanted.