I strongly suspect that I have dark entities attached to me at the moment. Until fairly recently I lived in the same house as my mother and brother, both of whom are fairly dysfunctional, and the mood there was dark and depressing with some strange occurrences happening at times.
Also, my father took his life a few years back. He was an abusive, pathological and mentally unbalanced person. I have had sessions with mediums before, and often my father would show up and from what he said he is even able to read my thoughts, suggesting that he is close to me. He has apologised for his bad behaviour during life and one medium seems to think he genuinely wants to help. But another psychic says he is in a dark place, surrounded by other dark forces, and that he is quite dangerous.
Anyway, I am constantly plagued by negative thoughts of hopelessness, worthlessness, guilt, shame and general fatigue. I know that these forces attach when you are in a low vibrational state. But it just seems hard to get out of it sometimes. Part of the problem is that I have long been fairly lonely and isolated from others, largely from poor social confidence and low self-esteem. I find it difficult to ask for help, find help, or connect with positive people. I know I am spiritually evolved and have noble intentions, but sometimes it just feels like my fate in life is to wander the wilderness alone with my suffering.
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