Haha, you know, When writing my reply, I've just had an INSANE realization, it just hit me out of the blue... Putting one and two together I have to admit that it was
my ego talking here. Especially about the 'sucking up' part. Wow, this is kind of embarrassing to admit but I was still in the frame of mind where I saw myself 'having to offer her my attention' as 'losing a match', and therefore, sucking up in order to get into her pants. I was still seeing everything as a competition or a race where I
needed to win in order to 'show everyone' and feel good about myself instead of just letting of all that nonsense.
Man, I have to tell you, life feels great in moments like these, letting go of your ego can be extremely transcending. I still wanted to defend my point about 'attention giving vs receiving' but I just saw the light
. It is all about sharing anyway, and that's exactly how I want it to be, even if that means investing time and energy into it.