addicted to loneliness perhaps ?
Whenever i get lonely or sad i used to just want to be alone and deal with my pain by listening to sad music and in dark spacous environment, wishing that people would understand my pain and feel sorry for me. I usually think of more sad stuff and imagine tragic things that i could have gone through to the point where i would just cry.
So i am just wondering is it just me or am i addicted to loneliness somehow ? I mean why do i not try to do stuff to feel better but instead surround myself with more grief ?
Is this some kind of way to get over my grief by taking it all out at once so there won't be left over grief to cry over or is it that i just want other's sympathy and attention? even though they usually don't know about it since i go somewhere alone.
After listening to steve's subjective reality and intention manifestation podcast, i tried to change my habit so i don't manifest more grief and sorrow, but fail this time.
so what do you guys think ?
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