Hello allen080105,
I just wanted to lend my support and make a random comment. It appears you have been doing some really good stuff for yourself here. Good job, man! While reading through your posts, something that you said struck me - this one sentence:
"Lately it's really been coming down to decisions."
And oh, how right you are! Really, everything does come down to a decision! And, the beauty of it is that we can make a new decision at any time. Recently, I've learned the value in changing my mind. It's great to make a committment and stick to it. But, I had to learn there are also times that changing your mind (or making a new or different decision based on new insights, experiences etc.) is perfectly fine too. Fortunately for you, you seemed to get this pretty early as you revised your original plan to better serve yourself. That is fantastic. Keep up the good work!