Well here I am in the comfort of my new old room, I'd say 70% completed toward finding a new home for all of my belongings. Its messy, but comfortable, and I know that this will be the right environment for me to continue on my path.
I've stagnated a bit in my original goals. Going through the posts on this thread, I realized there isn't a whole lot of Darkworker (DW) "substance" coming from me, with the exception of a few of my original posts and some others scattered throughout the thread. What I've realized is that I haven't really dedicated the time to work on my progress, mostly because I had the stress of living on my own without the level of maturity or the financial responsibility required to be successful. Thankfully, living at home with my father will pretty much taken care of my base physiological needs (needs that weren't met when I was living alone) and I'll now have the energy and time to truly work on my descent toward self-actualization. Obviously, as follows, some immediate action must be taken to solidify that commitment.
In an earlier post, Asmoday advocated that I need to find and destroy any self-hatred, dislike, and doubt that has been festering inside of me. After all, being a Darkworker is about loving myself. This will be a challenging yet enjoyable process, and there a few exercises I will implement into my daily life to assist with that transformation. In addition to Rooting every day (until I awaken my Root Chakra, at which point I will move on to my Sacral Chakra), I will do the
Foci Exercise for Emotional Control and the
Mirror Exercise at least once a day for thirty days, and track my progress (or rather, the feelings associated with exercises) here. The goal is to make those a daily part of my life, and they are small enough that it shouldn't be hard to integrate all three at once. I've already mentioned the benefits I've seen from Rooting alone, so I'm looking forward to my progress after 30 days.
Additionally, I have begun compiling a list of all the significant events of my life - those that I think have defined me as a person or made me unique in my own eyes. I think part of my problem is that I have over-identified with some aspect of my identity, so the process here is to pin-point those major events, depersonalize them (ie, show myself why each one, individually, does not make me unique), and then put them back together in a way that shows how, as a collective, the experiences define me.
That's all for now. Until tomorrow.