mmm... I read somewhere (maybe in this web) that if you have some special gift... you're not at peace until you return this gift back. Like if someone do a great present to you, you may feel you have to buy something in return.
If nature of genes, of God or so... gives you a gift... the better thing would be to use it to help people.
I don't know. I write music since I was a child... and I'm often told that the hability to write music has done me more hurt than good. But I can't escape from it. I can try, but I won't. I know the only way is give it back, but I don't know how to do it...
Don't take my opinion too seriously because it's a different subject, but maybe it would help.