[Julia.Ru]

Thaks for the links, Henry J. I’ve already read Steve’s article you mentioned and as for Erin’s (I’ve never read her articles before), I really liked the part about contribution (what makes you feel like you’ve contributed). As for your questions, I think I’d answer them this way:

- What would you do for free?
Can’t say for sure. Probably, any work (only not too harmful for my health) if it lasts not longer than 4 hours a day ))

- What makes you excited?
That’s the problem. I seemed to have many interests when at school and at the university, but nothing excites me these days. If anything excited me, I would make plans immediately and started working on them. But now I seem to have only away-from motivation (I hate working for someone all day long) for starting my own business.

- What makes you lose track of time?
I can’t recall any cases when some activity made me lose track of time. Maybe, I don’t remember something, but now I can’t say I’ve ever experienced it yet.

- What would you do if you couldn't fail?
I think I could do practically anything as I have strong faith in myself, because I remember many cases when I had zero experience and knowledge in something and had to do it, somehow, someway, trying to do my best to excel.

- If money didn't exist and you could only pick one thing to do for the rest of your life, what would you do?
In general, money never interested me much, I just want to have enough for a living. If I had more interest in money, at least I’d have some motivation to work, and now I don’t need all the money I earn (I started giving parts of my salary to my parents), so I have no sense at all why I work))
But coming back to the question)), I wouldn’t like to pick just one thing to do for the rest of my life, because isn’t it too limiting? The same goes for finding one’s life purpose: isn’t it too limiting as well? For example, if my life’s purpose is to cheer up people? Even if someone’s life purpose is to grow and help others grow, is that all? I’m not speaking about the variety of mediums, but right about the variety of purposes or probably the category of purpose/mission/message itself: isn’t it just too small for one’s life?

However, philosophizing apart, I think finding at least one purpose would be a nice)) thing to me as I seem to have been depressed since 18 (especially at 20-23). I always knew what I wanted in life until I was 20, but approximately since that time I’ve withdrawn from almost everything and everybody and have lost my ideal plans. One of my life purposes seems to be about cheering up people, but I have to figure it out…

I think you’re right, 3afash and PerDev, finding my purpose should come first. But though I haven’t found it yet, recently some more concrete ideas have occurred to me. I’ve searched for the most popular websites and found one called Peegly. It’s in Russian, but I suppose the idea may have come from abroad. On this site people can share their joy or sorrow or confess in something or to someone. This idea resonates with me and I want to do the same, but better)), following Vartann’s advice. First of all, I don’t this site to be a place mainly to whine on and I would also like to be it for a large auditorium (due to the topics or organization of this site, its visitors are girls of 18-35 with higher education)) (it stated on the site itself).

So, at least now I have something to start from again, and probably during working on this idea, my purpose (or purposes) will become clearer)).