I think I understand your situation Sireesha,
I experienced a very similar friendship. Unfortunately, it didn't work out.
Our situation was similar to yours. Where I was the more confident one, and my friend "Scott" being the more shy one.
Originally, he was the more outgoing and talkative one. But I began to develop in high school and became much more outspoken.
This caused a rift between us and the friend dynamic changed.
Your friend probably keeps you around to make herself feel better. She's always viewed you in the subservient role. Imagine having someone around you who was always shy suddenly changing.
You are changing and it's either too fast for her, or she's not getting what she wants out of the relationship. It sounds like you aren't either.
If you feel that the friendship is out of obligation just slowly lose contact. It's a shame but even good friends when they outlast their use disappear. I've had a lot of best friends. But most of them don't last more than 2-3 years. Because we depended on each other.
Friends are born of utility.... as unromantic as it sounds, it's the truth. We all have something to share or give to each other. But if the net worth of having her as a friend is damaging you, better to stop actively contacting her.
Still be friends, but not actively. Just always be busy.
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