Soul, I think that was excellent advice given in the post above.
I would add a fourth issue to the list of three already spelled out, and that is the fact that you are sexually attracted to your sister. Whether or not your fetish is about something separate from her physical body (such as her poo or items of clothing or hairbrush, etc.), I still think this adds a mighty complicated layer to your situation.
Sex counselors really have heard everything, and I agree that perhaps you should see one, even if just once, to tell someone about this out loud and to hear how they think you might get over it, should you wish to.
I don't know how old you are, but maybe it would help to move out of the place where your sister lives. I sense that if you give in to what you want to do regarding collecting and manipulating these girls' bowel movements, you are going to go several levels further into something that you probably don't want to get into.
Fetishes are common and normal, but this one is so tricky and the reverberations of what might happen to your relationships and reputation if you are "discovered" at it say to me that it's right of you to be concerned about this.
Sometimes this kind of thing is treated by cognitive-behavioral therapy, a short, practical, focused type of therapy that is about changing behavior and urges in the present. You don't have to get into any sort of long-winded, 5 year Freudian analysis if you don't want to. (But certainly with the anal flavour of your complaint, you might be a Freudian analyst's wet dream, if you pardon the expressions!)
Stay strong and do not feel trapped - you are not required to follow your compulsive urges.
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