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Originally Posted by sirkinm  Even though it's hard to admit, I find my major goals centering around personal gain (more confidence, more exciting experiences, more money), or around protecting the people (and dog) that I love so I don't have to experience the pain of watching them suffer. But at the same time, I try to be good to everyone, and make at least a small contribution.... |
Indeed. I am in a similar situation. It would appear that a major goal in my life, to strike a "happy medium" is ultimately self destructive if this concept of polarization holds true. Its funny, I need, and want good things to happen to my. I am trying hard to change the course of my life. Yes,
I want these things to happen for my good, so that
I can feel better and avoid the depression of my current life, but it seems now that the moment I switch over to this mode of thinking, that
I am going to gain wealth for myself....it mean that in order to maintain it, I am going to have the defeat one of my most sought after goals in life; to be "set", to be wealthy enough, secure enough from most financial problems to allow myself the time to experience this world, and go out and work on the problems of this world...just having the time and the flexablity to "problem solve:...to help others, as cheasy as that sounds.
But if I do this formyself, it mean that I must always do so? How can that work?
<all attempts to improve myself just end up with more confusion and loss of hope...as well as a tendency toward melodramatic comments on message boards 
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