I still feel somewhat ashamed of my Darkworker side, but also feel that the Darkworker energy gave me what it took to leave my abusive family situation at the age of 17 and move to Europe. Without that fear of becoming like my family, of never escaping the anger and negativity and never being able to set my song free - I would not have made it. Everything Erin wrote above - drive, ambition, courage, focus - propelled me out.
Admittedly, I feel awful for looking out solely for myself in that situation, but I was conscious of no other option in my life at that time.
Now, where my life is more stable, positive and healthy I feel I can slowly allow my Lightworker side to blossom while in more acceptance of my own Dark Side.
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