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Originally Posted by Michi  I challenge you to take one day and enjoy wanting what you want to the utmost. A new pair of jogging shoes. A significant other with a great smile. An opportunity to make a group of people laugh. A day at a waterpark with the kids from your neighborhood, your treat. A large enough house to invite your aging mom to stay with you. These are ALL "materialistic" things that "matter" to you. So, have fun with your day of freedom. And while your at it.... I'll be creating a million dollar idea that will help millions... Create yourself as a wonderful person and whatever you create will be for the good of all around.
Mahalo
A note to JHL, please tell me what is your hobby, gift, talent or what you absolutely enjoy doing... I am curious. |
Thanks for your post Michi, I feel like you really connected with where I'm coming from. Your post has facilitated me looking deeper into myself to try understand better what it is I'm trying to express.
Underlying everything I have written is the feeling that I have strayed from my true nature. I am actually disconnected from myself. Without sounding dramatic, I only have a vague conception of who I am, or what I'm meant to be doing. I feel and know this palpably, and perhaps that why I feel so provoked when I see people talking about things that I feel would only draw a person further away from their true nature.
In lieu of being my true self, I live behind a mask that has functioned rather well in the world. I have achieved good commercial success, I come across as being very competent and capable etc. Yet inside I feel like an imposter and cant believe how I've managed to 'fool' everyone. However the cracks have started to show, as they inevitably must, and I've realised the need to 'find myself' before the cracks manifest as ill-health. (Mentally, they are already very apparent). But I digress.
To answer your question, I think I have some writing ability and certainly enjoy the art in certain contexts. That is what brings me joy - yet is the one thing I spend very little time doing. Whoever said we are our own worst enemies should be congratulated for being so right - and then slapped with a frozen haddock.
Thanks again for your post Michi, it really made me think.