[Seeking Truthful Advice]

Well, I broke down and called him to talk, but it still didn't really help. I wish I were stronger; I'm so smart in other ways, but I guess I'm rather a relationship idiot. He says that he wants to be friends and that maybe in a couple of months we'll go do something, but we'll have to see how that goes. He tells me that the reason I'm taking this so hard is because of deep seated issues with my biological family (actually, I don't have much of one - I'm not in touch with them - there was lots of abuse). Then, to make matters worse, my late husband took his life. So, I'm just a ball of crazyness. He tells me too that although he admires me for all that I've done in life, I'm a controller. It would be so much easier if one person was just perfect in a relationship and the other a slug - so much easier to make the other person "wrong." I'm truly about ready to give up - and on myself. I can't take much more of being so alone in life - it's not that I don't love myself, I do. It's just in loving myself, I realize that we all have a breaking point, and I'm at mine....