 My journey continues....
I was laying outside on a beautiful day.
I had my notepad and my pen. My 2 children played near by...
My mind began reeling...
In this moment I realized that I am living my past, present and future via the immediate people surrounding my life.
At first it seemed insane. Downright crazy, but then I called my grandmother and shared my findings with her and we both shared in a beautiful conversation. Now when ever she calls me and leaves a message she playfully says, "Candace, this is your future calling" LOL
The whole idea came to me from a memory of a friend I lost touch with almost a year ago.
He is a young guy whom I shared many eye opening conversations with.
He had just been released from jail and had missed the first 2 years of his daughters life. I remember his guilt, his confusion and more importantly his heart.
Just then it hit me, my father has been incarcerated for his entire life, and never once did I try to reach out to him. I saw my father within my young friend. I saw myself with my young friends 2 year old daughter and I realized in that moment that history was repeating it's self.
I decided no matter what my fathers mistakes, I could not go through this life without contacting him and givng him complete forgiveness and hoping he could forgive me as well. (I am in the middle of this right now and don't have the outcome as of yet.)
Has anyone else expereinced something like this?
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