Purpose is a tricky thing, especially when you're that age. I recall being pretty much the same as you between the ages of 14 and 17. The way I got through it, among other things, is having a really close friend who I could talk about most things. We both really helped each other get through a tough period in both our lives.
I know this seems like a short-term solution, but I would recommend doing something new. Pick up a new sport (trialsbiking was awesome for me--www.trials-online.com if you're interested), make new friends. Step outside of your comfort zone and recognize that while your parents' divorce may have happened to you, you are in no way responsible for it and that you're going to be proactive about life. Like posting here is a great move. You're gonna happen TO life, not the other way around. Just start taking charge.
Nowadays, when I'm feeling down, I do what Pavlina recommended and listen of motivating audio tapes. Anthony Robbins is especially good for that. I'd recommend that, strongly.
The long-term is really just made up of a few short-terms. Treat everything you can accomplish in one day as a step forward. You said you didn't do anything productive; do something productive even if it's something simple like doing the laudry or cleaing your room or clearing out your computer and celebrate that. Hopefully this'll help you feel better soon.
Life is exciting. Live it.
HTH!
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