My original God given mission as the result of an intense religious experience I had when I was 12 - To do what is required of me - nothing big/recognised or famous, a very small cog in a very large machine... I know I am on the right path when I do that which frightens me.
I was released from that about 4 years ago and through another profound religious experience - told that I now had to live for myself.
I actually went into a deep depression for a while as most of my life I had these guidelines and this overall sense of purpose. I found it really hard to live without it. I have been a bit drifting since then! I still haven't hit upon my new purpose and don't even know if I will have one. My husband is on his "life off" and it may be that this is now vacation time for both of us.
I enjoy dispensing advice (IRL as well as online) and generally being helpful in small ways but feel no calling to do this exclusively as a consultant or for a business, just generally wherever I go I like to be the grease that makes things run a little smoother.
My personal dream is to own my own home - eco-friendly, self sufficient on a small plot of land. To live there with my husband and a bunch of critters, and grow things.
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