 still having issues...
hello again...
okay... so I didn't follow any of your guys' advice and have been completely avoiding her calls... and she calls every single day... and I never pick up.... and she still thinks I'm a nice person...
I don't want to be friends with her... I don't know how to deal with this... I don't want her to become completely reliant on me... I think it's because I'm scared of becoming reliant on myself... I feel like the only reason I would be talking to her would be out of guilt...
I almost feel like doing reverse psychology on her... like call her insanely like every single day and pretend to have the world's problems and see how she reacts to it... I know it sounds weird, but I think it might show her what she's doing...
I think I have to call her... I know I can't avoid her... I'm just really scared... I'm not sure of what... any advice... I'm grateful to her because it's shown me how I was like... but I don't know of a better way to deal with it than how my friend dealt with me... telling me they wanted nothing to do me, because it really helped me snap out of it... but I don't think I can do this to this girl...
I'm going to call her... soon... probably tomorrow because I have to work on some stuff right now... as regards to Steve's blog about relationships... what is this saying about me? what is having this girl in my life saying about me? Any ideas?
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