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Originally Posted by Penelopi  where am I? I don't know, all i know is im not fully there. maybe i am in the present but, im not facing it. |
What can be done to change that? Can anything be done?
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Originally Posted by Penelopi Nice, I like the advice  Well this is what I do, I try to imagine someone is in my shoes or someone is surrounded with boys and how this person will usually react. I've actually witnessed girls who are surrounded with boys and they were all like in cloud 9 and become caught up with all the boys & stuff. Some become vain, self centered, some become vulnerable and was taken advantage of, some become this that. And I'm worried I might become one of these. Or maybe I was just imagining these things and making it real because I'm thinking about it.. I don't know if I'm prone to the disaster or will I be able to control it? Actually Im already worrying about it so I guess it worked on me. I'm just worried about being manipulated. though i know not all guys are like that. |
That's exactly the point. Allow yourself to become vain and self-centered and vulnerable. You can't disallow yourself from becoming those things simply by saying "I'm not vain, self-centered, and vulnerable" over and over again, or by playing out meaningless scenarios in your head. You say that you feel that your worry is unnecessary. Are you willing to take steps to prove that, to live what your body and mind are telling you is true, or are you just going to avoid the issue so you can keep worrying?
If your worry is invalid, then maybe the thing you're worrying about is what you are meant to become. Or maybe it's what you are meant never to become. Either way you can't face the truth until you admit that what your worry is telling you to do is wrong. It's not the fact that you feel worry that is holding you back, it is the seriousness with which you regard that worry.
Knowing it to be wrong
for certain, you still take it seriously as a valid means of determining your actions. As long as you use worry, you will feel worry. To stop worrying, you have to stop taking it seriously, and the only way I know of to stop taking it seriously is to let yourself become what you're worried that you'll become. I don't think you're a slut at heart, but if I'm wrong then you need to face the music, and the only way to find out for sure is to free yourself to become a slut and see if you're any good at it.