[Andrew Gubb]

A few points I thought of -

After reading all of Stuart Wilde’s books it seems choosing the Dark Side would be an extremely bad decision, also Steve says either is fine, but Darkworkers are like cancer, isn’t cancer bad?

Yes! I really would say that Darkworking serves no-one. But I think Steve was trying to encourage you to use your own authority by saying they're both viable paths. If he just told you not to, and you decided to let him be your guru, how would you evolve? I think you can only become either a lightworker or a darkworker when you have become independent from the assurance of other people. Both lightworkers and darkworkers experience resistence for what they do, but they feel that their higher calling is more important than whether another person agrees with what they do or not.

But I can’t just be impotent. Does a Darkworker eventually evolve to the point where he learns his lessons and begins to give back to society? If that’s the path I have to take and it will lead there I am happy to do that.

Umm... I think Steve explained it badly. Yes and no. If you decide to focus on yourself, you eventually recognise you're part of the greater body and the best for you is a harmonious, loving relationship with that. That form of darkworking is one you transcend. If you focus on building dark energy (fear energy) in you and using it as a form of power and motivation, though, you won't "transcend" that. You'll be running away from enlightenment, love and lasting happiness so long as you let yourself be used by fear.

I also think being a lightworker generates the type of person who I kind of see as lame, I like them ok and love the work they do, I just don’t see myself being like that, I want to be ‘cool’ not a lame geeky self-help guy. Have I misinterpreted things and think I have to be a darkworker to proceed in my growth and evolution, to make progress in any direction, when I actually do not? Can I be a lightworker with such selfish goals? Do I in fact not need to choose at all and can still have enough power and influence to get what I want here?

Me and my best friend, lightworkers both, have the most perverse sense of humour. It's easy to see who's a real lightworker and who's full of **** by making our jokes. If they're disgusted and think they are more enlightened than us because they maintain more decorum, then I'd say that they have more evolution to do, at the very least. If they piss themselves laughing, then they're lightworkers. Humour is divine

I'm cool. I think Steve had the belief that he needed to be uncool or weak to be a lightworker - he actually said something like that in his book. (Talking about Power, he said that after choosing to give up the dark side he spent some years feeling unfulfilled until he realised that he had a soul-level longing to build his power - and not for dark reasons). Well, I'm pretty good at not giving a crap what anyone thinks, so I don't mind living for myself if that's what my heart brings me to, and I didn't decide at any point to identify as a lightworker. Perhaps this is why I allow myself to have perverse humour and go after women sexually, etc. Yet I have to admit that the only thing that makes me feel that life is worth living in the slightest is my mission to help people. I really would kill myself right now if I found myself limited to living a self-centred wage-slave job all my life. That feels so utterly meaningless, everything but doing my part to bring this world to love feels meaningless, and even sexing women and earning money feels meaningless unless it is in harmony with my greater mission (I do both with great vigour). I'd say I'm a lightworker, then

Hope this was of some help. By the way, I think the greater part of the people who write about polarity on these forums don't know what they are talking about - painful, but true. I think Plato understands polarity very well, particularly darkworking, and I don't know who else. Good luck

Andrew