[songindarkness]

I have screwed up my whole life at 26 and I have nowhere to go...

but UP

Thank you, themaster!!!! That's really a great way of turning it around.

Right. We fail if we die without achieving. Until then we still have a fighting chance to succeed.

True. I want to succeed! I hope I can.

It looks to me that lack of sleep is making you to feel depressed, without energy to socialize, and to see all the negative angles of the situation. You may need to have a tight sleeping schedule in order to feel better. It may be that simple.

I think sleeping will help - I always have trouble sleeping though. I think that's part of my problem.

songindarkness, I just want to say first that I really appreciate the courage it must have taken to be so honest with us; and I know you probably feel desperate right now but I can assure you that the feelings you have now will pass and that things can get better

Thank you, m18pak. I am in therapy now, at university, and it's helping quite a bit, but I'm still feeling very low and I'm trying to get help. Thanks for being so sympathetic. Actually, in answer to your other question, I am Asian, sort of, I'm 5/8 Indian, 1/4 Chinese and 1/8 English. Quite a mix.

And remember, while you are breathing, you are alive, everything is just circumstances that don't really matter. Numbers in a computer and words on paper can't destroy you

Thanks Parthon! I hope things work out for you too!