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Originally Posted by Jaycee  If you smoke out of boredom, your problem might not be that you are addicted to the chemicals, but that you're using smoking as a way to escape reality. Substitute smoking with watching to much TV, to much sex, playing MMOs excessively or your favourite drug or escapism mechanism. It's basically the same with all addictions. |
Yeah, that's pretty true. It's basically that I use it as a reality enchancer. It seems to make reality more interesting. At least I'm not addicted to cable tv, which I think would be even worse. And also, it's just something to do. I don't smoke cigarettes (regularly anymore) but that's what was enticing about that whole scene- it was
something to do with yourself or socially. Luckily that's not a nepenthe I feel I need- unless I'm drinking, which I've pretty much given up as well. I had a major alcoholic phase age 19-22/23 so I think this is residual from that era, which is one where I pulled a lot of negativity to myself. So yeah, now that I have that major toxin out of my life, I'm working on the smaller ones.