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Old 11-09-2009, 01:33 AM   #46 (permalink)
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thanks ohTen. very thoughtful response.
i find the acceptance comes in waves, i accept it, and then i allow other things to cover over that (including tasks i need to complete in my life), and then there is another wave of mindful acceptance.

which i say is much preferable to the massive confusion i felt before. so there is definite progress. i have heard the inner voice, the voice i find myself fighting with at times, is quite persistent.

as you said, who i choose to date is my business. i will probably date a woman next to see what that is all about - unless i feel myself drawn to a man but right now i don't think that is likely - i think synchronicity will see to it.

and at least i'm now aware of those specific layers of social expectation that influenced me before... also a part of my dating history was a way for me to work through some grief over losing my father, and it has served its purpose.

thanks again to you and all the previous posters.
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