 Wow I just had a revelation!
I can't believe what is running through my mind right now...after posting that last post I got super depressed about myself, I can't believe I've never made ANY goals! I just let my life happen TO me, not because of me. I am like a backseat driver to my own life! No wonder I feel stuck all the time, because I keep expecting things to happen for me! I've wished for lots of money, and a boyfriend, and a job I like, but by wishing for something that just reinforces that you don't have it! I guess I have always felt like this sheltered dreamer, that everything I want is on the other side of my protective bubble of a life, and I can only fantasize about those things.
Wow...this explains all my recurring dreams about not being able to find my car or not being able to get my car to drive right or not being able to walk or run or move forward...wow... I can't beleive how much this one post has helped me realize something I've been trying to figure out for years!!
I need to take control of my life before its too late!! I need to learn how to grab the steering wheel and not just hope I get driven to the right destination!
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