hi everyone,
i'm fairly new here so i hope i put this in the right place!
since early summer its been a strange, dizzying time in every area from relationships to family to friends and finances. my old notions of reality came crashing down hard...forced me into putting my main creative project/business on hold while i dealt with more prominent life issues at hand.
around the same time a pretty sudden, major spiritual re-awakening has forced me (and still is) to re-evaluate my life even more. my intuition has gone through the roof, i've finally accepted it and i pretty much know i'm being pushed by the universe to open up...weed out all the unnecessary junk that's holding me back from being who i really am.
after going through a whole gamut of emotions about these things, i've begun to realize the creative path/business i was pursuing may not be so right for me after all. its stagnating, i'm frustrated with it, nothing seemed to be going right before i had to put it on hold. i'm no longer resonating with it at all. and this isn't the first time i felt these things.
much of the frustration comes from feeling like this project was nipped in the bud just when it was beginning to get successful. its full potential was never actualized. the rest of the frustration comes from how i put *so much* into it (financially *and* emotionally/mentally) and have gotten very little in return, which makes me even less satisfied with myself as an artist. and the satisfaction issue stems into a whole bunch of other things too, mostly the collaborative nature of the work itself and the attitude of the industry i must deal with to do this as a business (i can elaborate later on this but i dont want to make the initial post too terribly long). i know if i decide to continue it, some pretty major changes have to be made but i'm not sure i have the heart to do it anymore at all...changes or no.
in one sense i see how all creative expression is connected so by choosing another medium i'm not doing any disservice to my essence as an artist. i don't see dead ends, only expanding options and future potentials. i'm well versed in music, djing, drawing, graphic design, film so i'm not short on paths!
now my question is....
is this a case of an empire built on unstable foundations needing to be destroyed so it can be
rebuilt on more solid grounds? or do i say let it go and move on to a whole brand new expression?
am i just going through a funk and should ride it out knowing once i do this project will be successful? or do i go down a new adventurous path not knowing where that path will take me? or do i just simply quit fussing and do both even though that might involve some compromise that i don't know if i can make either?!
my intuition is screaming find the new path.... but then how do i let go of that dissatisfied failure feeling so i can positively channel creativity instead of funnel resentment?
i haven't had much problems letting go or changing other situations that weren't working but this situation keeps pulling me back
thoughts anyone?