Hello all,
I've been reading the blog for almost 4 years and the forums for about a year and I'm finally breaking out of lurkerdom. I'm not only new to posting on this forum, but I'm new to posting on forums in general. So please be gentle with me.
Anyhow, I'm here because I have a long-standing interest in understanding life, the universe, and everything and I start with understanding myself. I was a philosophy major in college (10 years ago) and for the past 5 years I have been working/apprenticing on organic vegetable farms. I am currently working part-time at a community arts organization. Dancing and the ocean feed my soul - they are where I bliss out.
To use the Pavlina triangle as a context, Truth and Love are strengths for me, Power is the area where I need work. It is the area I'm working on and why I've decided to post. I know I need to start taking action. Even if it's as small an action as posting on forum!
I struggle with figuring out how to be successfully me. I am well aware of who I am, but I have trouble seeing the way to how that is valuable to anyone else. In the areas of work and money, I start to lack a vocabulary. I know who I am, & I know what I love, but I don't know what to do with it. I start to get very confused. And a very unique experience happens for me - I actually lack the words to describe what's going on. It's like my system crashes. If this paragraph is confusing and unclear, then here's a great example of the problem.
I look forward to the feedback the members of this community have to offer and hope that my learning can be a useful contribution to others here.
All Best,
fresc