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Originally Posted by GrGrimm  I have a compulsion to smoke. Although I know they say thc isn't "addictive" because the compulsion isn't the same as a heroin addiction, for example, I still am in the habit of smoking. For me obviously it is addictive because I get a craving (out of boredom) and then I think ah, whatever I'm going to go somewhere I know I can get high. I know if I could go a month without it I wouldn't have the craving anymore because I wouldn't remember as vividly how relaxing it is to get stoned. I just can't make it through the 30 day trial, and I don't really know why. So, because it isn't totally ruining me life, I guess I don't WANT to quit bad enough. I want to have a completely drug-free clear head again, but that wont isn't overpowering enough to stop me. And this is completely frustrating because I've had that wont for a couple years now and I keep disappointing myself. I'm too much of a gemini; I wish I could just have one opinion on something and stick with it. I have friends who have just decided- ah, I'm done with it and then they're done with it. I don't know why I can't.....I've tried thinking positively. I've tried not to focus on quiting because that actually may attract it to me. Even now, I want to go smoke for something to do, but my higher brain's screaming, WTF's wrong with you. |
Cigar has very powerful addictive substances. Do not underestimate them.
If you want to escape reality, instead of drugs, try arts.
Here is a good tutorial...
Main Page - Fantasy Art Resources and Tutorials
Instead of "enhancing" with drugs, try to enhance with imagination, by breaking the limitations to the expression of your soul. Arts are a great way to vent emotions. Use your emotions as the driving force to create.
Just do not show your arts to people. Such venting must rely in your privacy. Showing arts is what you do when you want criticism or when you want to have your arts for sale. Normally, venting emotions will not produce masterpieces in the first few years.
Do not make arts to please others, make arts to please yourself.