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Old 11-06-2009, 07:47 AM   #18 (permalink)
ellie
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Well I have been lucky enough to manifest things so my life to be more in tune with the way I envisaged it, and yes it exactly what you said, "courage".

I think the journey in getting there is hard to do though (because courage is a hard thing to embrace), but once you get there it's awesome. I do often smile now at how happy and content I am and yep I sit in my car when on a driving trip, and thank the stars above for how content I feel.

The one thing I am struggling with is the money aspect, I am at a place where more money is coming to me and finding it hard to get past that "I will lose it all tomorrow if I don't keep it locked up safely and don't touch it". I am not enjoying having money as much as I thought I would, it scares me.Well I guess the next journey for me, is learning how to enjoy it I find it really hard to let go of money...I think this has a lot to do with my childhood and my father spending frivolously and I never wanted to do that. When I saw him wasting money, I was wanting him to save, so we could live in a nice house. This has always been my dream. The irony is I now have a deposit for a house.

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