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GrGrimm · 11-06-2009, 12:10 AM

I have a compulsion to smoke. Although I know they say thc isn't "addictive" because the compulsion isn't the same as a heroin addiction, for example, I still am in the habit of smoking. For me obviously it is addictive because I get a craving (out of boredom) and then I think ah, whatever I'm going to go somewhere I know I can get high. I know if I could go a month without it I wouldn't have the craving anymore because I wouldn't remember as vividly how relaxing it is to get stoned. I just can't make it through the 30 day trial, and I don't really know why. So, because it isn't totally ruining me life, I guess I don't WANT to quit bad enough. I want to have a completely drug-free clear head again, but that wont isn't overpowering enough to stop me. And this is completely frustrating because I've had that wont for a couple years now and I keep disappointing myself. I'm too much of a gemini; I wish I could just have one opinion on something and stick with it. I have friends who have just decided- ah, I'm done with it and then they're done with it. I don't know why I can't.....I've tried thinking positively. I've tried not to focus on quiting because that actually may attract it to me. Even now, I want to go smoke for something to do, but my higher brain's screaming, WTF's wrong with you.

11-06-2009, 12:10 AM	#4 (permalink)
GrGrimm Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 49	bleh I have a compulsion to smoke. Although I know they say thc isn't "addictive" because the compulsion isn't the same as a heroin addiction, for example, I still am in the habit of smoking. For me obviously it is addictive because I get a craving (out of boredom) and then I think ah, whatever I'm going to go somewhere I know I can get high. I know if I could go a month without it I wouldn't have the craving anymore because I wouldn't remember as vividly how relaxing it is to get stoned. I just can't make it through the 30 day trial, and I don't really know why. So, because it isn't totally ruining me life, I guess I don't WANT to quit bad enough. I want to have a completely drug-free clear head again, but that wont isn't overpowering enough to stop me. And this is completely frustrating because I've had that wont for a couple years now and I keep disappointing myself. I'm too much of a gemini; I wish I could just have one opinion on something and stick with it. I have friends who have just decided- ah, I'm done with it and then they're done with it. I don't know why I can't.....I've tried thinking positively. I've tried not to focus on quiting because that actually may attract it to me. Even now, I want to go smoke for something to do, but my higher brain's screaming, WTF's wrong with you.